An emptiness

That hole that I have in my heart seems like it will never close. I find myself missing my mom more and more lately. Not sure if it's the Easter season, mom was very festive during this time of year, or if it's cause I know that that day is coming closer and closer to when I lost her. I wake up each day thinking that it will be good. Then those moments where I find that I'm not doing anything creep up on me and my mind starts to wander. I love to think about my mom but then the heartache begins and I begin to regret letting myself think about her. I know that this pain will always be here, I just wish that it would get easier instead of harder. If it weren't for certain people in my life, I have no idea what I'd do. This was gonna go in my private blog but I decided to post it on my public one. I feel a little better after writing this :)